I've been diagnosed as bipolar. Which can lead to depression. Some mornings I wake up with a weight on my chest. On those mornings I'm extra careful avoiding the gray rabbit hole. That's what I call negative thoughts. The gray rabbit hole. Too many negative thoughts and I become filled with dread to the point of ... Well I'm sure you can imagine ... And it's not like I can just flick a switch and end the negativity. I wish. I'm here to tell you it's 24/7. With no vacation, and no time off for good behavior. Sounds spooky. You know what else is spooky, too many good thoughts. That's right, even good thoughts can get someone who's bipolar off his game. That's why I call good thoughts the purple rabbit hole. You see I need balance above all. So forget about doing drugs or drinking, even one drink can throw me off balance. Woo woo! Balance above all! Say it. "Balance above all." So I don't want to go too far up or down, but I am trying to increase my capacity for JOY! That's the upside to being bipolar. Actually, that's the upside for all of us. So, my therapist tells me to follow love if I want to increase my capacity for joy. To only go places that I feel safe and cared for. I know, that creates a small list. But hey, we all have to start somewhere. And anything's better than the gray rabbit hole.